Choices!
Ah, what a wonderful thing to behold.
Alas,
nice to see, nice to hold.
Make the wrong choice, prepare to fold.
Every big decision in our path is a temptation in itself. There is definitely a huge longing for one of the choices. An unbalanced attraction towards one definite path.
Usually, the path your heart set its sights on is the one people deem inappropriate. Wrong. Incorrect. Illogical.
And there you go, a conundrum.
To be or not to be, that is the question.
Which path should you step on; which move shall you take? Bear there in mind, there is no turning back in life. No time machines, no Hiro Nakamura.
There is no U-turn.
Why wouldn't I just take the easy way out?
What if, I hadn't hesitated, and said, "yes, I do"?
What if, I had decided not to go competing in Form Five? Would I have gotten Straight A+ in my SPM, and zoomed overseas?
What if, I had just stayed where I was, and not chose to come for the supposedly greener pastures in Kuala Lumpur?
Lots of questions, all unanswerable.
Would I be able to grow so much, had I made the decision then?
Would I be able to lift this trophy in a victorious triumph not many people have tasted?
Would I still be myself, had I not done everything I did in the past?
Just as Percy Jackson, who decided to leave Calypso's island, to face Kronos. Just as Harry Potter, who decided not to die as he should have, and returned to face Lord Voldemort.
So must I make the heart wrenching choice, and make the choice which I believe, would bring me to greater heights.
I leave my heart, sobbing in my wake. One day, it will understand. And I pray that it sows its beats for the same cause, so that 5 years later it will reap what is deserving.
As Charity said,"Faith is not the belief that God will answer my every prayer; but the belief that everything He promised will be fulfilled,"
The happiest man on earth is one who is grateful. He would look into the Mirror of Erised, and see himself as he is.
And I aspire to be like that guy.
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